Chaos 👀👀

Chaos👀

Don't look for monsters
under the bed,
they live
inside our head.
They make themselves home
in our mind,
looming behind
our eyes, constantly knocking.
Knocking down the walls
we put up,
to hide our fears
they're now crumbling down, all botched up. 
This game of deception
I play with myself every day,
hiding behind a charade
still trying to find my way.
It takes everything
to not give in to the monsters,
to not stop trying
to fight back against the horrors.
It's like the walls
are caving in,
like I'm being sucked into
an abyss, fear crawling under my skin.
Sometimes our head
is the worst place we can be,
often it's like being drowned
in a bottomless sea.
The monsters are not
waiting for us under the bed,
they are right here, within us
creating chaos inside our head. 

~anoushka